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You are a piece of crap for doing this, okay.

You must think that this is okay, that it’s alright with me that you step in and out of my life. Do I look like a roller coaster to you? Am I some form of amusement that you get to go on and off whenever you please? D’you think that our friendship is like that, really?

I would really appreciate a legitimate reason as to why you are acting this way, and why you’ve been acting this way – because no one deserves to be treated this way. What’s wrong with saying that there’s something wrong, or you’re just not in the mood? What’s wrong with saying that you’re in the middle of something? Really, is that so difficult a task that you’d rather have me figure it out? So if I’m a roller coaster, I have to be a mind reader too?

I would like to be there for you, really. I would like to be an awesome friend to you. I was at this point that I would drop everything for you. I’m not sure if this is a reciprocity thing, but I refuse to be dealt with in this manner. I refuse to be your booty-call friend (just in the sense that you only go to me when you need something) or someone you turn to when no one else is listening. I don’t want to be an option when you’re obviously a priority. I don’t work that way. I don’t want to make a fool of myself.

So, really – ball’s in your court. ‘Cause I’m tired of throwing it at you and having to chase after it myself because you’re too busy talking with other people to play this stupid game.