Once again, I’m back at the hospital, watching over my mom. I never get tired of spending time with her, because even if she treats me like a grown-up most of the time, there are days when she lets me stay in the hospital bed with her and squish in like I’m four years old. At least at the end of the day, she can still hug me, kiss me and say, “You’ll always be my baby girl.” You know, just ’cause I’m always going to be her first baby.
Finals week is just around the corner, and I feel like I’ve grown up so much in the past few months. I recall looking at law school like it was the boss at the end of a video game level, and I felt the immense fear of pausing the game, saving it and returning to it some other time – usually with an older boy cousin in tow to do the job for me. Although I do have an older cousin in a different law school, there is really something different about going through law school with only people you’ve barely met to help you – this is probably what XBox Live feels when you’re there for the first time.
Now, with finals coming up, I don’t think I can say that I’m ready to beat the boss just yet. But, thankfully, the past few months in law school have equipped me with some skill, training and weapons to get me by. I’ve had mentors left and right – thank you, Ces and blockmates, and Jet! haha – to help me figure out what to do with law school. I’ve had times where I considered quitting, just because I felt like I’ve got so much left to do and I can’t do it in law school. But now, at least I think I’m ready to fight. And if I fall, I fell trying.
But for this weekend, I think I’m gonna go back to Neverland. Amidst everything that’s going on, I’m going to sit down, have my mom cuddle me, and tell me that she can help me fight my battles. I really don’t know what I’d do without her.