One of my favorite quotes from The Holiday is this –
“I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new. And you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.”
Kate Winslet’s delivery of the monologue was so heartfelt and painful, it starts aching – to quote her – in places you didn’t know you had inside you. I remember watching this movie for the first time and feeling a tear slip down my cheek, not because I could relate, but because it sounded like the most painful thing in the world – falling in love with someone who didn’t love you back. And well, when it came to the point that I actually could relate to it, the tears didn’t stop flowing until I had to stop the movie and curl up in my bed.
Patching myself up after someone broke me has got to be the most difficult thing in my life so far
next to losing weight. You just come to a point in your life where you see yourself shattered in pieces all over the floor. You suddenly lose the vision of your previous self, and you wonder how the bloody hell you’re going to fix yourself up. You attempt to pick up the pieces by yourself, and sometimes you wish you could just throw it all away and stay broken forever. Thankfully, you have enough friends and family to remind you that you’re not worth throwing away. And slowly, with a lot of their aid, you start picking up the pieces. And when you finally meet the person who broke you again, you can stare him or her straight in the eye and say, “Nice try, asshole.”
He’s going to remember why he was so attracted to you, but all you’re going to remember is the fact that he knew how to break you. And if he broke you once, trust me on this – he can break you again.
So if you’re strong, like they say you are – please be strong enough to say no.