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Passion. n. a strong liking or desire for or devotion to some activity, object or concept.

I’ve always thought myself to be a passionate person, because I feel like I do everything with a certain level of intensity. I don’t like doing things half-baked, so by choosing to do something, it means I’m going to give my hundred percent. I always hate it when I do end up giving half-baked things, but let’s not get into that for now.

One of my passions has always been musical theatre. I must admit, at first I really wasn’t aware that there was such a thing until my roommate (who was just a classmate back in the fifth grade) decided to drag me off to a summer workshop for teens. I really didn’t know what musical theater was back then, but I knew that was the moment I fell in love with musical theatre. It wasn’t love at first sight or anything – it was this gradual and very meaningful process. I savored every bit of that summer – going to my teacher’s house to watch Into the Woods, playing workshop games about energy and improvisation and preparing for my first musical production, Bugsy Malone. Let me tell you, it wasn’t the best production in the world, but I was proud enough to buy the VCD of our performance (and lose it later in life).

My decision to go to Ateneo only deepened when I watched my first blueREP play. My best friend got tickets, so I watched it eagerly with her only to be stunned by the talent and dedication that overwhelmed the whole audience. The story was hilarious, the actors were brilliant, and everything about it just made me decide straight on that I wanted to go to Ateneo – so I could be in blueREP. And sure enough, a couple of years later, there I was. I’m not going to babble on endlessly about my endeavors in blueREP, but I do want to tell you about Little Shop of Horrors, the last production that finished just yesterday.

It’s not enough to say that LSoH was a learning experience. It was so much more than that. From auditions, I already knew that to get what I want, I had to push myself and work for it. Having just recently broken up with my ex-boyfriend, I needed a distraction. Thankfully, LSoH provided it for me – and I ended up falling in love with the whole production instead. From the black-comedy material to the Absurd direction by Toff, to my castmates and my stage managers, to the artistic team and just everything, I knew that this was going to be one of the best productions I’ve ever been in. And I was right. I was reminded of what musical theatre was about – telling an amazing story to people who wanted to listen. I’m really glad they listened.

A blueREP alumnus told me that maybe this won’t be my last production, even if I feel like it is. I don’t know if I’m going to perform again this year, and I actually don’t know if I’m going to be able to perform again when school’s over. But I know that I’m always going to love this craft, and I’m always going to feel strongly about it. I really want to thank blueREP for sparking that flame that was slowly dying. Now, it’s going to stay alive – regardless of whether I’m performing or not.